Scare and worry

What are you biggest fears?

Mine are: first a scare of loosing my eyesight. I had a brief but very dramatic sample of the feeling couple of years ago when my retina got detached and I was the best candidate for an eye patch. Luckily it all got sorted out by a fabulous eye surgeon in Krakow and I am still seeing with both of my eyes. But I have to be very carefull...

The second fear is of a destruction of my little status quo in the family life: my Dad died 6 years ago and I do not think that I will ever really manage to overcome his disappearance from my life. Things are not going to be the same again. it took me couple of years to delete his mobile phone number from my mobile.

I am currently living in my own happy bubble, surrounded with fabulous, loving people - I will do anything I can not to destroy it but some things just happen independantly of my own will.

Therefore we got frantically scared today when we received a call from Haddington that Lyovka had been whisked off to intensive care in the night! The image featured to illustrate this post comes from our visit from just two days ago (we all went to the Gallery of Modern Art to view their expo 'Artist's Rooms') and now his life is threatened seriously!

He woke up in the night and was not able to breath. He went all violet so Simon's parents called for an ambulance. He was given shots of adrenaline and steroids and the whole IC section of the Sick Children Hospital in Edinburgh were there desperate to help him. Luckily his condition stabilised but a lung specialist said befuddled that they had no idea what it was. 'That really gives me cause for hope' commented Lyovka still breathing with difficulty.

We had barely the time to put our coats on when we rushed to hospital. Apparently Lyovka's symptoms were simmilar to ones of the much dreaded krup virus which usually does not attack children of his age. Couple of hours later he was transferred to a regular ward and after having his lunch let off home. I just hope he is going to have a nice calm sleep tonight, breathing healthily in his own bed.